Wednesday, December 29, 2004'♥
-yawnss-
went town.
shop shop shop n shop till i almost drop dead
damn shagged.
damn packed.
sickening.waited for nana so long.
gg mid nite den rch siaz.power.
went home aft slacking.
raining.was so so cold out dere.-brr-
going town agn tmr.
lol freak siaz.
i wana watch e "fuckers" or "fokers" or watever it is call
but im so so broke now. *whinesss*
sianzation.
im thinking of yew still..
Zombie@12/29/2004 02:03:00 AM
Tuesday, December 28, 2004'♥
went out to tamp wid ben n his friends.
funny n cute peeps. =)
den went parkwae slack wid jacko.
mit up wid salwa n salimah awhile.
den saw ivy..slack wid dem awhile too.
sianzation.head veh pain sia.
life's getting boring..
i kinda miss sch.miss my ite friendss.
whr's our outing man.sch gonna reopen liao u noe!
haiyo!
heh ok nth much..going town tmr...isetan private sales.
so in love wif tis song ming zhi dao by xu mei jing now.
Ming zhi dao ai ni bu hui you jie guo
Wei he hai ru ci zhi zhuo
Wei ni fu chu shuo you
Ni jing bu gu yi qie jiu zhou
Ming zhi dao ai ni zhi shi ju xu cuo
Wei he ru ci cui ro
Yi jing xi guan you Ni
Yi jing bu neng jiang ni bai tuo
Ye xu dang yi chang mong
Mong xing yi qie dou sui feng
for him...
Zombie@12/28/2004 01:09:00 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2004'♥
went town.
dinner.slack.
bought my stuffs.
mit up wid nana.ongling.delin.jacko.
movie at lido.
watched seeds of chunky.
not very nice.juz a so-so.
da seats sux big tym.
uncomfortable.pissed off.
ongling rebonded her hair.nice.
pretty pretty lady now.=)
thanks 4 ur x'mas pressie gal.
nth much.went home.
lethargic.but...having insomia.
its killing me.i nid my sleep.
cough med run out.
carn haf a good sleep n'more.
-sighs-
n'wae.im fine peeps.no worries.
sorri to tose ive been showing att. n temper to.
carn control my emotions.my moodswings.my silly tempers
dun feel good inside at all.so sorry.
i love u guys.
thanks 4 putting up wif all my nonscenes.
it's so tormenting.
somebody..take diz pains awae frm me pls.
im gg bersak.missing him.
holding baq.not to msg him at e same tym.
i hate it.whn will all tis gonna end?
its tearing me apart.
alive.
Zombie@12/26/2004 02:39:00 AM
Saturday, December 25, 2004'♥
.hot.ar.hot.
.damn.stone sehsss.
Zombie@12/25/2004 02:15:00 PM
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M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S ! ! !
-yawnss-
juz reached home..waiting for my hair to dry now.
so update my blog since i got nth to do.
mit up wif ivy at bdk den went to kaili hse 2 mit up wif da rest
duno y...kip having blur vision...damn pek cek
aniwae..ya had our dinner da moment we reached.=x
spags...chickens...crabs...n jelly!!!my favouriteeeee!!!
hungry la.but din eat much though.all da smokessss kinda spoilt my appetite.
all thanks to mellinsa..kaili..kailing..lingjie..we got home-cooked food for dinner.=)
den slack ard...waited for ah ger come...-yawns- till we fall asleep.=x
drink too much le bah...juz knock out lyk tat...lols.
den continue playing..slacking..eating.. till 7 plus.-home-swit-home-
damn damn damn stone and shag liao...
aniwae..well...though tis yr x'mas countdown is da most not-happening one...
but its really a good one.to juz be wif sisters & gud pals.
da fun is more den enuff. -peaceful one-
beta den torturing ourself by squeeeeeeezing wif others out dere yeahs.
n its so inconvenient...so sticky...so eeeeewww.
k enuff of my rubbish.damn seh ar...i wana go zzzz liao...'nite-nite' ppl.
--sigh--
im thinking of you da whole tym
i dun wana run awae frm anitink
but guess deres nth i could do
at least u still do rem mi s ur friend
tats how i feel whn i saw da 4ward msg u send
feel lyk msging u baq..but better not.
held baq.it sux.it bites even more.
Zombie@12/25/2004 07:48:00 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004'♥
..hao.ai.ni..
..hao.xiang.ni..
..hao.xin.ku..
Zombie@12/23/2004 11:12:00 AM
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havent been gg out for bout...3 daes already.
-sighs-
was so sick..feeling so so weak.
fever kip gg up n down. last nite was at 38.4 degree.
sickening.tmr's x'mas eve.
dunch noe if im able 2 make it 4 da outing.
i hope i can. *shrugz*
nort in a good mood though.
feeling kinda low. -sigh-
how i wish he's by my side at tis pt. of tym.
i dun ask 4 much but juz sms-es or cols will do.
so mani cols..so mani sms-es.but none frm him.
been thinking so much these daes..
recollecting e tym when i saw him at taka..
when my heart beats so hard it nearly stopped.
its been so long.so long since i eva felt tis wae.
-sigh- well... i may not haf contact u so much n'more.
n i juz dun haf da courage tat e other gals mite haf
2 tell u how much i feel 4 u.
i choose 2 kip it 2 myself...though it hurts.
praying tat one dae...miracle will happen.
n i'll wait 4 tat one dae 2 come.
i aint fickle-minded.i aint a flirt.n i mean wat i sae.
i will wait 4 you.
da greatest x'mas pressie i'll eva wana haf...is u..
i miss u...i miss da tyms when we used 2 disturb each other thru sms.
miss da tyms whn we talked on da fone.
i miss everything.n most o all.i miss u.
so much...
memories stayed.but things changed. =<
Zombie@12/23/2004 11:00:00 AM
Tuesday, December 21, 2004'♥
-sighz-
kana spread by ivy..n now i fall so sick.
fever..sore-throat..cough..flu..n my head hurts.sho heavy.
damn xin ku...n i dun understand y..ppl luv irritating me when im sick.
juz lil minor stuff i will n i am gonna flare up.ppl ard mi noes it.
so dun come n act s if u noe me well n stuffs..when u actually dun.
DUN BE SO SELF-CENTERED n THINK PPL OWES U A MILLION
n e more u ACT pathetic n juz wana gain sympathy..e more I DETEST U.
I HATE tis kinda freaks!so juz FARK OFF!LEAVE MI ALONE!
I DUN WANA NOE WAT U DO OR HOW MUCH U DO 4 MI
COZ IM NOT AT ALL INTERESTED~!N I C NO POINT IN U SAYING IT OUT EITHER!
I HAF MY OWN EYES! MY OWN BRAINS!
I NOES HOW 2 APPRECIATE THINgS TAT R WORTH 2 B APPRECIATED~
BUT NOT WHEN U KIP TELLING MI WAT U DO! Y~
wana ATTRACT my ATTENTION? FARK OFF LA!
i will ONLI feel damn fucking PISSED OFF~
I HATE PPL IRRITATING ME!
n i HATE IT WHEN PPL TRIES 2 TAKE AWAE MY FREEDOM N CONTROLS MI!
ESP WHEN U R JUZ A NOBODY 2 ME.DUN ACT S IF U R MY GUY OR WAT!
U R JUZ SO NOT MY KIND! SO GET AWAE!!!
i aM VERY IRRITATED N PISSED OFF BY YOU!!!
Zombie@12/21/2004 01:27:00 PM
Monday, December 20, 2004'♥
lazy to blog.
played real hard lately.
kip myself busy.
better tis wae.
dun wana think of tose stupid stuffs.
yeah.
moodswing now.
haik.wateva.
feel so irritated.
but i dono coz of wat.
sickening.
u suck.
Zombie@12/20/2004 02:03:00 AM
Thursday, December 16, 2004'♥
i regret showing u attitude
i regret giving u cold shoulders
i regret not saying yes when u ask me out
i regret so so much 4 not giving u e best s a friend
im sorry...millions of sorri
but everything is too late now.
it will not bring u back..alive.
i hate myself.hate myself so much..so much..
y muz all tis happen...
pray 4 tis wonderful friend of mine...
god took him awae from us tis morn...
i will neva...neva...4give myself...
Zombie@12/16/2004 02:17:00 PM
'♥
.its.da.hardest.tink.i'll.eva.had.to.do.
.to.turn.around.and.walk.awae.
.pretending.i.dont.love.you.
.i.dont.wana.lead.a.lie.
.wat.can.i.do.
Zombie@12/16/2004 01:07:00 AM
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I don't want to run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my boy?
I don't know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
Why does it hurt so bad
Why do I feel so sad
Thought I was over you
But I keep crying
When I dont love you
So why does it hurt so bad
I thought I had let you go
So why does it hurt me so
I gotta get you outta my head
It hurts so bad
You hurt me so bad
Zombie@12/16/2004 12:12:00 AM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004'♥
went town ytd.
mit up wid ivy n jacko aft meeting chris
was finding for somewhr 2 nua..n drink
den ivy suggested boat quey...-diaozz-
n end up we went bomb.
shiok ar..no ppl de.had e whole plc to ourself.
*_* drink quite alot.one whole jug of burborn coke n bout 1/2 jug of vodka all 2 myself.
--sehz-- stewpid ang-mos outside.wat an ass.desperate!
guys beside bomb...desperate too.sho much money wana treat ppl drink.
go treat urself to a nite at geylang beta!MUTHER FARKERS!
went baq to jacko plc dere n haf prata...
n lyk ani moment i can juz pi dere..
bth sia...den kana freak out whn we were walking off to take cab.
tis stupid guy ran towards mi.. ... ... "my friend wan noe u can"
another muther farker...fark off la...desperadooos.
wat a dae...suey...suey...suey...n even more suey...
woke up having another hangover. *pukes*
went down town again.......in e evening
mit nana n jacko.
shopping ard fareast n scotts...stupid nana...go out wif her...can go real broke.
buy tis buy tat...u noe..temptationssss.
saw tayah..=) mit up soon alrite sweets.
den waited 4 cat off work...went p.s n saw jasper...
chatted on our wae to meridian.haaz.stupiddd sehss.
laugh at mi...hey u listen up.i am n i will b e future office lady.biz woman.
dun kan bu qi wo i tell u.HUMPH!meanie durian...
took cab baq.caught in a damn heavy jam.
n guess how much is da stupid cab fare....30++ bucks.
............... wat e hell .............
ar....wateva....so long i'm home now. but im still so wide awakeeee
so boring sehs... -_-
Zombie@12/15/2004 02:05:00 AM
Monday, December 13, 2004'♥
went town on fri
shop ard for jacko present wif ongling..
bought her levis tee den went to slack at borders c.b wait for her 2 come
very sian...so i started entertaining miss ong.lols.good ar ling..
actually wana eat at taka sushi tei..but..too mani ppl
so end up at this korean rest. over at hmv.
they kip laughing at mi.coz i duno how 2 use e damn chopsticks.
so i end up eating e udon one by one.pathetic.
so tiring can.. eat till lyk tat.fark ehz.
den ol bf came dwn...went over 2 p.s
slack at rockys'...entertained them.
den nana n cat came over to mit us...went to drink at da place beside p.s
1 barrel...went down to fisherman..another barrel.
yeah it was fun..toking craps n playing lyk nobody biz.
till i heard every single shit bout him.it suck.
n'wae...yeah we saw him..at taka..n saw him agn whn we were on our wae to hmv.
my hart beat so fast it nearly stopped.*sigh*
went 85 market to eat wif jacko ytd b4 gg down 2 fisherman..(agn)
tat stupid ger...she was so so drunk.
n she puke all over...den my hands n legs kana her puke..
so gross can!!! wah lao!!!
nevermind...actually wanted to mit ah ger dere..
but den was raining liao...so go home early yupps..
n ivy lost her wallet...her ic...tis tym she needa pay 300 bucks.
haik...quarrelled wif her juz now.
whateva...i guess both o us aint in a good mood lately.
rot at home e whole dae...-sianzzz-
think bout lots of things..
came to a conclusion...or mayb a decision..
since things turn out tis wae...den well..
no matter how hard it is..i'll let go..i'll learn to.
it will hurt even more tis wae n its gonna b
but..i guess i juz got no other waes out.
Zombie@12/13/2004 01:00:00 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2004'♥
is he realli tat bad
juz lyk wat u've told me
is he realli a bastard
shld i trust wat my friends said
or shld i believe in myself
insisting on my own thinkings
--confusion--
u changed
i dono y but i rly wish 2 noe
do i rly deserve such att frm u
tis cold treatment all of a sudden
tell me wat's gg on....
Zombie@12/11/2004 03:20:00 PM
Friday, December 10, 2004'♥
chill out ytd nite at ecp
ton till 7 plus den go home..was real shag n stone.
ah ger make us laughed so hard till our energy all used up.
lolz.she fetched us frm bdk to ecp..
thrilling seh..but can see she's already like halfdead b4 we rch ecp.
ger..thanks 4 everything.
da laughter n joy u brought to us it realli make a diff.
being able 2 bring a smile 2 our face when we were at da lowest point.
it aint easy.but u juz did it.i love u.*muackss*
we shall ton again on da 17th kae..ivy last paper..3 cheers 2 her freedom.=p
bring tent n camp dere.tis tym muz haf more den 1 bike liao.or we will all die.
woke up at 2 plus feeling damn tired n weak.
aint got ani appetite 2 eat at all so nua at home da whole dae
do nothing but smoke n smoke.hate being alone.
it makes mi feel worst.even more depressed.
forced myself not to tink of anitink.but my hart aches even more.
fite baq tose tears.conquer tose bitter feelings in me.
2 mani things happened lately...i seriously nid a break.im juz 2 tired.
im falling apart..deep down i feel so lonely..
all alone 2 fite tis endless battles.
yet i needa b strong 2 be dere for my sisters n friends who need mi at tis pt. of tym s well
im real tired of everyting.but deres nth i cld do to make myself feel ani beta.
somebody...kill me pls...
im suffering frm insomia agn.it sux.
no matter wat i do...all i think abt is u.
words juz carn describe exactly how much im realli missing u.
i feel so lost.in tis lil tormented world of mine.
Zombie@12/10/2004 01:38:00 AM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004'♥
.depressed.
.silent.tears.
Zombie@12/08/2004 03:46:00 PM
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-_-
juz woke up nort long...been stoning in front of da comp ever since
woke up early in da morn at 6 plus ytd..
went wid jacko n her sis n 1 more friend 2 hougang area 4 interview
was real damn stone wif tat stupid blur look of mine.
coz onli slept 4 bout 3 hrs or lesser nor..
den went to bdk foodfare 2 eat my mian xian..
was craving 4 tat yeahs..mayb coz of da weather lately.*shrugs*
den went home n slp e whole afternoon awae..*lol*
so smart of mi 2 set my fone 2 silent mode.2 haf some peace 2 slp.=x
went fareast 2 mit up wif nana..ongling..cat..jacko at bout 7 or 8 plus..
slack ard den went to p.s starbucks continue slacking..
coz im craving 4 my ice mocha~~!
wahaha.lame.den went baq 2 bdk 2 drink.
2 cons. nite ive been drinking.went to ecp on mon nite wif ah ger n ivy n we drank too.
den go crazy disturbing da public n entertaining them at mac
hehz...2nite gonna ton out agn..at ecp...
i love e sea...e sea is mine...
guys..sorri if i've been affecting everybody n e atmosphere of our hanging outs lately.
im feeling depressed.very.xtrememly moody.tats my a.p n temper got worst.
but im fine.dunch worry anitink bout me.yeah..im still da strong me..
thanks 4 everything guys...rly appreciate it lottsss...friends 4 life...
v....no matter wat it is..u muz b strong..yeah.
it realli hurtz 2 c u suffering this wae..guess its ur crucial period now.
but u gotta learn 2 take things on ur own stride.
i'll be by ur side alrite..u still got mi n ah sa...
rem wat we said tat nite on msn yeah?
we muz b strong.stronger den eva.
onli 2 each other we show our soft side 2.yups?
im feeling equally miserable....but deres nth i can do
but 2 b "happy" 2 b "smiling"
fighting baq tears every now n den...feel so tired...
i'll c u 2nite...take care of urself yeah...i love u...
__+__.sistas.4.life.nth's.gonna.affect.us.__+__
to da special someone in my hart.
i dono if its a mistake falling 4 u.
coz im falling deeper n deeper each dae.
mayb i shld juz gif up long ago.
coz i guess its impossible 2 b more den friends.
i miss u so much im feeling depressed..
wo de xin li hao nan shou.
mayb wat they said r rite...its onli outta bordom tat u msg mi..
i hope n i pray tat wat they sae r wrong...
but well...i doubt so.its enuff.
the silent tears.da broken hart.da bitterness.
its killing mi....
Zombie@12/08/2004 03:28:00 PM
Sunday, December 05, 2004'♥
went town ytd..
mit up wid jacko & jocelyn at fareast den went over to scotts
drop by 2 disturb nana n her sis..=x
den went shopping den slack
waited 4 nana off work den pei her eat at meridian..
haha she nearly fly in da bus..*lol*
been doing nth da whole week..
brain gonna rust..useless me.*sigh*
tmr gonna go e.c.p to relax n haf fun.
its been so long since i last been dere..
i love e sea...i love e breeze...i juz love gg dere wheneva i feel down.
hope dere wont b ani changes to our plan...n beta not rain agn man~!
feeling sho moody now..
*sigh*
shall not sae much...im gg crazy
mayb i am already nuts.=<
.we.r.so.near.yet.so.far.
Zombie@12/05/2004 06:30:00 PM
Saturday, December 04, 2004'♥
havent been blogging these daes..
lazy duhz...-_-
well...hrmm enjoying my hols now playing real hard.
dun rly haf e hart to find ani job.
coz im juz too lazy 2 work.n it juz lyk fer 1 month?
i mean who will wana employ a staff for juz 1 mth rite.
so gonna juz slack my life awae..
tiring man.boring.do nth but slack n stone n rot all dae long.
mit up wid salimah..salwa n company todae.
were recollecting e memories of our isetan daes..
all da bitchings.e slackings.e brk-tyms.e mundane routine.
n most missed by us---da smoking area.
apart frm tose stupid things we gota put up wif at tyms..
its nth but fun fun fun n more fun working dere wif these peeps.
n im juz so glad 2 noe u guys yeah.
k enuff of my crappingss...
im so so bored...my hand hurts...
gave jacko her advance 10 birthdae punches juz now...
10 more to go on fri...*evil grin*
i'll be baq...
Zombie@12/04/2004 01:55:00 AM